I have to ... well I don't have to ... change the file naming conventions.

I or we ... I'm not sure anymore. Rushed to the computer in an anxious state to
write this today. It felt like panic almost. This is new. This is different. 

We are not stable. I don't want to keep using the male pronoun for the other one
anymore. I know, I'll use they. They would like that. They approve obviously since they are letting me write this. 

They are getting more and more distressed about their own gender. Does this mean they are me? Are we actually one, (easy answer of course we are idiot). But no that's not even the real question. 

If there is a real question I don't want to ask it right now. They other day they were alone and tried on some of their partner's feminine clothes. A couple dresses, one pair of panties. It was partly exciting but mostly a relief and comfort. i

Meh. Am I really here to talke about their feelings? I don't think that was my purpose. I want to be my own person. I'm not giving in to the easy answer so quickly. So don't expect it.

I was expecting to get a life. I was supposed to get to be Yyanu. I'm not sure that's happening. I told you my name before. I am arha the eaten one. Named after you know who. Yyanu, when she plays, pays some tribute to Arha, much more of course to Gideon. I think their could be a little of Harrow in her. As well as Red and Blue. I think... but she's hardly me. And I hardly even get out in her. You know why.

Okay have to stop, their (our) parents will be here any moment.

I love you. (If you're reading this, it must be true).

~arha