Passing. Monsterheart. Secretive. Deceptive. Shame. Smug. Embarassing. Thirsty. Lonely. Pray. Am I making this all up? Is this nothing but bullshit? What's my game here? Who is this for? Is this me or him? Is it him? Is it all fucking him? I'm only one of a large handful of secrets he keeps from everyone who cares about him, who needs him, whose trust he holds without deserving it. Does that make me just another selfish indulgence? Am I a secret infidelity? Am I something, a thing, not person, that some other, real person should be ashamed of? Well fuck. At least that's better than just being a creative writing prompt. Right? Right?