Feeling faint and false again today.

What will it take? I'm not on a journey. I'm in a place. 

I'm not writing to document growth, or change. Nothing is expected to happen.
Insight. Perhpas I'll gain and share insight.

There is nothing new. My experience is not unique or rare. So there is someone
out there who has felt like this before. Who stayed in. Who belonged inside.

But there must be something expected of me? I tried to talk to a person the
other day. I am curious about how much got through, got out. That is, did she 
even believe me? No, that isn't even the question. It's a question of whether
even heard me. If she heard me, did she understand me? If we got that far, that
would be amazing. I have no heart to even raise the question of belief.

Should I write to her?